My Lily...

In effort to get through this blog and minimize my tears as much as possible, I will keep this entry pretty brief. This past week has been incredibly tough and for all those people who are dog lovers, I assume they will be able to relate more than some. So here goes...

We had to give Lily a new home this week (which turned out to be Chris' family - a blessing in disguise). I could not stop crying for 2 days straight as this is the hardest choice I have had to make so far. I know it sounds silly but most people in my life know how much those dogs mean to me....especially Lil. I have done better the past couple of days but not without a couple breakdowns as the reality hits.

After I got done with a building tour on Tuesday, I stopped by my house and Lily and Daisy got in another massive fight. Daisy's surgery ear was completely bloody. I tried touching it but she cried like I have honestly never heard before. I took her to the vet and at the time, it was looking like they were going to have to re-do the entire surgery they did a month ago because her ear was completely filled with blood again. I was balling in the vet office because I realized that I think it was finally time for me to make the decision about Lil.

So after much crying and "internal struggle", I made the decision that we needed to find her a new home. Which in turn, the only place I wanted her to go is with Robin. We took her there Wednesday night and it was soooo hard but I know she will be happy there. We just cannot continue to come home to blood on the walls and the constant tension that Daisy and Lily may fight. I mean, Daisy was literally getting torn apart. It just sucks so bad because she is the perfect dog except for her fighting with Daisy.

I was closer to Lil than any of the dogs. I will miss her following me everywhere around the house. I will miss her dramatic head tilt of curiosity. I will miss glancing out the window watching her sun bathe. I will miss giving her eye drops and puppy baths. I will miss everything about her (except for the fighting of course). All in all, I don't regret anything about having her for the past 3 and a half years. She has brought so much happiness into my life. I would do it all over again...the many, many vet visits, breaking up fights and trying everything to think of a solution so finding her a new home was never an option.

With all that said, it brings such peace in my heart that she is with Chris' family...cuddling with Robin daily! I am so incredibly thankful that they would bring that sweet little love bug into their home. I love that I will still be able to visit her often!

And to Daisy and Wally, I am soo happy you little pups are in my life. Clearly, for someone with no kids right now in my life, these are my babies.